(i obviously don’t have a lot to talk about since it is spring break and i’m not really doing much. humor me.)
yesterday, i went out the the canyon for another good hike to the lighthouse. it was a great time, but i realized about halfway through the hike that although i put sunscreen on my face, i forgot to put it on my body.
by the time i got home, i looked like this…
i am very fair skinned. my heritage is scotch-irish so i don’t have a chance against the sun. really, i probably shouldn’t be allowed outdoors for more than 15 minutes at a time. to get a halfway tan in the summer requires many, many short trips outside to build up to maybe an hour. all the while, i’m wearing sunscreen, especially on my face. i even had to get some spots removed from my back a few years ago because the doctor thought they could be pre-cancerous. (fun fact: they cut deep and i still get little shocks every once in awhile, which is what the doctor told me is my nerves rewiring. it’s weird.)
bottom line: me and the sun don’t really go together. so here it goes… my open letter of apology to sunscreen.
i missed you yesterday. the winter distracted me from our close relationship with you. the sun burned the hell out of me. i’m in pain. i’ve learned my lesson. i know how much i need you.
i don’t know why i thought i could face that big, mean sun without you. i love the sun. it treated me well when i was a kid and rewarded me with a gorgeous tan each summer. but our relationship has changed. it doesn’t respect me or love me in the way that it loves other people. it treats me badly. i need to stop trying to go back to it.
we’re a pair, you and i. i should never have forgotten you. you protect me. you stick around even when i try to wash you off in the pool. even though I get made fun of on a regular basis for whipping a bottle of you out of my bag or for my pasty white skin, i should have respected you and included you in my fun day. i won’t make that mistake again, friend.