i’ve been working really hard on getting healthy for going on eight months. i have lost about 15 pounds and want to lose about 10-15 more. i’m at a healthy weight at this point. i’m putting on muscle and toning up a lot. i am noticing a lot of changes. i feel amazing. i’ve also been kicking ass on my diet, which is due to my vegetarian challenge and the physical changes i’m seeing.
but i noticed something the other day…
a friend was complaining about how she wasn’t losing weight and she just wished she was my size. when i looked in the mirror that morning, i saw nothing but my imperfections. and then there was a friend telling me that she was jealous of me and what i’ve done to my body. i couldn’t complain about anything after that. i look at girls all the time and think the same exact thing – i wish i had her body. i’ve also experienced skinnier girls than me talk about how “fat” they are. and that’s annoying. i don’t want to be that girl to someone else, especially with the people i care about.
i guess what i’m trying to say is that i need to watch what i say about myself. i need to be grateful that i’m healthy and still able to work hard at making my body better. i need to be proud of my progress and be able to look into the future at the work i still have to do. i don’t need to complain about the things i still want to change to other people no matter their size. i need to be encouraging. to myself. and to others.