i think women in particular have a problem with wanting to please everyone, wanting everyone to like them. lately, i’ve been feeling this pressure to get along with everyone i come in contact with. i’d like to say that i don’t care about other people’s opinions…but i do. everyone does.
i don’t have any grand ideas of being friends with everyone that i meet. we’re never going to click with everyone, and i don’t think we’re meant to. but even though i won’t mesh with everyone, i can still be kind, tolerant, and more open to people. in the past, i’ve lost friends or just stopped connecting with people because i’m not willing to do open up or do the work. i have some regrets. and nobody needs those.
i think that when some people see me, they think that i should have accomplished certain things by this point in my life. marriage. children. a bigger and better career path. a house.
but i’m still just trying to find my way. i’m getting better about being more open with people. that’s still so difficult for me. i have closed myself off for a lot of my life because of hurt in my history. but that is not something that i want to hold me back now. and it has for far too long. it just became a part of me before i even realized it. i still make mistakes. don’t we all? but i try to just move on now. that’s why i love that quote – i’m a slow walker, but i never walk back. maybe i did in the past, but i won’t anymore.