personal life

did you just “ma’am” me?

one of the things that i’ve been struggling with lately is turning the big 3-0 in a few months.  i don’t feel that old.  well, sometimes when i get out of bed in the morning i do.  but most of the time, i feel 22.  on the inside.  not so much not the outside as much anymore.

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but i’m reminded every once in awhile like when a teenage boy holds the door for you, you say “thank you”, and he says “you’re welcome, ma’am”.  it surprises me every time.  i usually whisper loudly to whoever i’m with, “did he just ‘ma’am’ me??  that little shit…”.

i realize this is not the normal reaction.  i should say, “thank you, young man. that’s very sweet.”  but no.  my instinct is disgust and anger.

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this is quite possibly my favorite scene from “happy endings”.

but it’s happening regardless of if we want it to or not.  we’re getting older.  i am now more interested in spending my money on eye creams that actually work and a pair of good dress pants rather than beer and a new “going out shirt”.

it is sad in a way.  but there are a lot of good things about getting older too.  i know how to deal with hangovers.  or i just don’t drink enough to get one.  i am good at managing my money…most of the time.  i know how to do my make-up and hair (not that it minds what i make it do).  i’m learning to not care so much about what other people think.  i will do things that “kids” do and i just don’t care.  why not?  i’m still able to do those things.  so why the hell not?  i’m gonna have fun till i’m not physically able to anymore.

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