last week was rough for me. on top of some added stress, my anxiety was high. i debated on going to the canyon over and over all week. i think i knew deep down that i needed to go, but by saturday morning, i was still going back and forth. after wasting an hour after getting up, i put on some ripped jeans and old tennis shoes and just went. i got some advice from the park ranger for some new hike ideas.
i ended up doing two hikes. and in usual taylor fashion, i got lost on the first one. but i made my way back and finished it. the first hike on the CCC trail took me from the top of the canyon to the bottom. i paused several times during the hike and took in the impressive view. it makes you feel small, like all the bullshit doesn’t really matter. after some serious reflection, i turned around and went back up. i got in my car and drove to the opposite side of the canyon. by this point, i was feeling much more relaxed.
my second hike, the rock garden trail, was a little different. the distance was longer, but the altitude change wasn’t as drastic. i just put in my earbuds and listened to music the whole way up. the whole experience was exhausting, in the best possible way. i needed to be pushed physically as much as i needed the quiet moments of meditation. i am thankful for the beauty of god’s creation, but i’m also grateful for the stillness to simply be in that canyon, to not have to think too much about anything but putting one foot in front of the other for a few hours.