my “word of the year” is balance. every day is hard with that simple word. i guess i didn’t realize how hard it was going to be when i chose it. it’s difficult to let myself have treats when i feel like i’m working so hard on my workouts and eating well the majority of the time. but i need that cheat day. and i sure as hell use it. although it’s been hard, it’s been good.
yesterday, i could not stop thinking about pizza. and pasta. and chocolate anything. they were some serious cravings. i didn’t cave even though i wanted to with everything in my being. it probably had something to do with the fact that i don’t have any junk food in my house. this is on purpose – i have little to no self-control with food.
but i’ve got some motivation to eat well right now. week 3 of the 8 week fitness blender challenge is underway! i’ve been sore for the past week and a half with no real relief. but at least i’m sore. at least i’m active. at least i’m sticking with it. i’m doing the damn thing.
i can get obsessive about stuff and take it out on my body. in the past, it ruled my life. i used disordered eating and restriction, thinking that would help me get the results that i want and that my body being better would make everything in my life better. that never happened, of course.
i love this quote and it reminded me this week to keep seeking that balance. i need to put my energy in the right places with the appropriate foods, good workouts, my faith, healthy friendships and relationships, school, etc. if i spend too much time focused on how i think my ass is too big and my arms are too flabby and my stomach sticks out further than it should, i won’t have the energy to spend on the real stuff.