i’ve been struggling with my motivation for the past couple of weeks. i finished day 36 (out of a total of 38 so far) of my fitness blender 8 week challenge. for some reason, missing those two days so far has really bothered me. i wanted to stick to it. but things come up. life happens. and sometimes you miss a workout here and there.
here’s the thing though…36 out of 38 is great. that’s five workouts each week for over five weeks so far. add in the two one-week challenges i did before that and that’s over seven weeks of consistent workouts. that’s an accomplishment for me. i should feel proud of it. and i am. but i’m also annoyed that i’m not seeing the results i want. i have messed up on my food quite a bit. in my head, i know that’s where i need to put my focus now. the workouts are rolling along and i’m gaining my muscle back. to get that scale moving and the inches melting off, i need to be more strict with my food.
back at the beginning of january, i told myself – one treat day a week. well…one day has turned into two and then three during the busy weeks. and i know i’m just sabotaging myself. how many times have i heard – you can’t out train a bad diet. i know better. so i need to do better.
this whole process is baby steps when i want to take giant leaps. but i’m coming to realize that i need to acknowledge the progress i’ve made so far. no, i haven’t dropped many pounds, but i’m healthy, feeling great, and working out about an hour a day for five days a week on a regular basis. that alone is a breakthrough. now that i have consistent workouts, on to the next step: consistent healthy eating. i won’t be counting calories this time around. it makes me obsessive and is counterproductive. but i will be sticking to that one treat day from now on.
even with the frustration i’m feeling lately, i want to finish this challenge with a bang. and then do another one. i can’t decide if i want to do the 30 minute challenge or try a different one. i guess i’ve got another couple of weeks to decide. i just have to keep going and at the same time remember the great foundation that i’ve laid already.