it’s no secret that this winter has been tough for me. they usually are. but i made some mistakes, did some things i regret because i was feeling hurt and bitter. in some twisted way, it was my way of reaching out for help. and i needed it.
it’s not “all better” or anything. but it’s definitely better in a lot of ways. all fall, i was reading “rising strong” by brene brown as my book study for my leadership team. i heard brene speak at a conference last year. even before that, i was kind of obsessed with her. but after hearing her in person, and thinking she was speaking straight to me, i decided to finally buckle down and finish her books. i’ve picked them up but never finished one.
so i committed to “rising strong” first. it took me a long time to get through it. not that it wasn’t good. in fact, it was amazing. one of the best books i’ve ever read honestly. but i had to read it in small chunks because every time i would pick it up, it would speak directly to my heart. i cried almost every time i read it. it’s intense for someone who needs to needs to be brave and fix some things. it made me feel very vulnerable (hence the crying!). but i did finish it.
and now, i know that i can do it. it won’t happen overnight and there will continue to be struggles along the way, but i can make those changes that i want to make in my relationships. i can work on letting go of the shame that i carry with me each day. i can be curious about my regrets and guilt because they’re meant to teach me something. i can face my story because it’s mine.
here’s a couple of my favorite quotes: