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from a hot mess to another new beginning.

sorry for the radio silence lately… i’ve been going through it. just been in a funk.  it happens sometimes.  i’ve learned to deal with it, but occasionally it holds on for longer than i’d like.  the anxiety is the cause.  i know and recognize that.  but the blues, man?  that always surprises me. my fitness/food… Continue reading from a hot mess to another new beginning.

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why are real lemons used in furniture polish but not in lemonade?

i just started reading “master your metabolism” by jillian michaels.  it’s brought a lot to my attention and also reminded me of several things that i need to change in my diet.  i’m reading carefully and thoughtfully, making notes of things i need to work on. for some time now, i’ve been really interested in… Continue reading why are real lemons used in furniture polish but not in lemonade?

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3.14 | high five for friday!

(ONE)  spring break was great!  i had some really fun moments!  and i actually got some stuff done.  not as much as i though i would, but isn’t that always how it works out?  a haircut and color, some spring cleaning, a little hangout time with my friends, and there’s a ufc fight tomorrow night.… Continue reading 3.14 | high five for friday!

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these battle scars don’t look like they’re fadin’

you know… there are days when I have it all together. and there’s days when i don’t. sometimes i look in the mirror in the morning and give myself some finger guns and move on. there’s been more of these days lately. but there’s still days when i stand there for a little too long… Continue reading these battle scars don’t look like they’re fadin’

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the battle with the scale

i recently went to the doctor for that dreaded annual appointment.  it’s standard to be weighed at the beginning, of course.  i honestly hadn’t weighed myself in a few weeks.  i get burned out on it and sometimes even obsessive. i wasn’t prepared for the nurse to be a complete bitch.  she was totally short… Continue reading the battle with the scale

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beautiful

just look at it. decide. move on. be awesome. i ran across this video the other day.  i’ve probably watched it five times.  the first time, i cried and i laughed.  i needed to hear those words. my self-image has been in the crapper lately.  i’ve never been called “beautiful” by anyone that i can… Continue reading beautiful

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my IFG is kind of a beeotch sometimes

damn… sometimes my IFG (inner fat girl) gets the best of me.  lately, it’s at the strangest times.  that bitch just shows up and makes her presence known through my words to myself, my comments to others, my body language, and my shyness. her grip is strong though.  and i don’t know how to pry… Continue reading my IFG is kind of a beeotch sometimes

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why do i need the validation?

lately, my plateau has been driving me kind of nuts.  i’ve been stuck at a certain weight for going on four months now.  i have been doing everything right, but that scale is not budging.  at.  all. i get so pissed about it sometimes.  i eat right.  i workout regularly.  i don’t over do it.… Continue reading why do i need the validation?

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my inner fat girl

last night, i had a long conversation in a parking lot with my bff, kat.  that’s probably not the best place to have a heart to heart, but when i drink shit just comes pouring out of my mouth.  things i want to say out loud but don’t.  anyone else do that?  🙂 so earlier… Continue reading my inner fat girl